something queer going on

Sounds like the story of my life. I've been dreaming of him ever since I was thirteen(and that's a long time ago). He has defined my standards about what a man should be like. Unfortunately it backfired, because nobody was able to meet those standards. Nobody has his genious, his generosity, his talent, his grace. That being said, those closest to him seem to have had a hard time loving him. And his movies created false impressions: In real life, spineless nerds cannot be kissed into dashing heroes. Still, I dream of him practically every day. Favorite film: definitely the court jester, with me and the colonel a close second.